Sayonara Body

I came across a documentary

On the YouTube

About competitive sports and steroids

There was a horrific scene

Where a bodybuilder

Was using a syringe with a

Bent needle to pump fluid

Out of his bicep

*Gross*

This DIY surgical procedure

Landed him in the emergency room

Where he had his muscle tissue sliced

And partially removed

*Uuugghh*

I didn’t watch much after

This scene but

I was left wondering

“Why do people do this to their body!?”

There has to be a

Fundamental disconnect and hatred

Toward the body that creates

A platform for all

Sorts of self-destructive behaviors

Like binge eating, binge alcohol drinking,

And recreational drug use

I really have no clue

How the disconnect and hatred occur

But I can take a couple of guesses:

Parental shaming of the body

Media portrayal of beauty

Socializing with peers

What do you think?

The bodybuilder in the documentary

Said he hated being short (5’5”)

And said he certainly had a

“Napoleon Complex”

That led me to believe

That he hated his body for

Not being a socially accepted height and

He showed his resent by destroying his body

“I hate my height, so I hate my body,

So I’m going to torture it”

Sooooo disturbing…

I have another post on the

Topic of Body Alienation