You Can't Add Nor Subtract

For a long time I’ve been

Trying to fatten a list of reasons

Detailing why

I’m "good enough"

Last week,

I laid down to

Do a mental list and add to it

When it occurred to me

That nothing I could add

To the list could ever

Add or subtract to my

Worth, value,

Deservingness or desirability

My list could be ten pages

Long and nothing on the page

Could prove or disprove my

Inherit completeness,

My greatness, or

My lovableness

The joy and relief that I felt

To realize that I no

Longer have to prove

My greatness is

Truly overwhelming

Since then, I have

Caught myself several times

Building a list in my mind

Every time I feel insecure

It’s a coping mechanism now,

Which is a great one to build

But I’m ready to live

From the point where I don’t

Have to convince myself that

I’m worthy of everything

And everyone I desire