The Fk Happened Ten Years Ago

I was listening to Teal Swan

Whom I find really interesting

And her teachings very practical

And she said something along

The lines of 

“Let’s face it, we all end up

On the spiritual path because

We were suffering and wanted

To be happy. If we were happy already

We wouldn’t have ended up here”

A statement that I find

1000% (Yes, one thousand) true

I think people who end up

On the spiritual path have

A moment in our life when we

“Break”

It’s like a moment when our

Stream of perception

Has a gap and we

Realize that there has to be

Another way to live life;

That the constant awareness

Of our emotional pain

Is somehow an illusion

My breaking-point came

Ten years ago

After eating a

“Special brownie”

That brownie was so

Special that I began

Having panic attacks,

Which led me to

Drop out of college,

Drop my apartment,

Move across the country,

Start seeing a psychologist,

And get on anti-depressants

Six months after the brownie

A friend’s mother recommended I go

Buy a stupid book on dating

(I wasn’t even worried about

Dating at that time, but people

Think relationship solves everything)

And so I went to the bookstore

And instead I found

“The Power of Now”

After buying the book

I went to Starbucks and

Was approached by a man

Who saw me reading the book

He became my first spiritual guide

A year later after the brownie

I went back to school

And took a class at

Santa Monica Community College,

Where I met the most amazing

Human being I have ever met

For the past eight years

She has been my

Spirit/Life/Emotional Guide

Without her, my life lessons

Would have remained uncovered

Until my 50’s or 60’s, which is when

People usually begin to

Unravel their past

Without my breaking-point

Life would have remained

Unexamined, unchallenged,

And dictated by 

Tradition and the status quo

I wish you a breaking-point

If you haven’t had the

Opportunity to experience

One already