Boredom Is As Boredom Does

Ah blah...

Boredom...

THE condition of my life

My friend says,
"Only clever people get bored"...

I don't find any comfort in that saying

-_-

I wrote a post back in 2014 about boredom:

"My boredom doesn't stem from inactivity,

It stems from abandoning what is important to me"

Wow

I need to read my own shit more often

;)

Right now my boredom tells me that
Life as it is, is not what I want

There's a deep sense of dissatisfaction

In my boredom

A feeling of "Not good enough"

Prevails in my existence

I find it tragic that I'm

Extremely fortunate in many ways

And still find shit to be bored about

I feel that what is fundamentally

Important to me is to 

CREATE:

To birth ideas;

To bring inspiration into existence;

To show my Self to the world;

To find a connection to the physical realm

The acknowledgement that I've

Abandoned what is important to me

Is actually painful

It means I've abandoned
The most precious part of who I am